No Time.

.column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

Chapter 1

I check my watch.
No time. No time.
Again, no time.
Never enough time.

I function, I am active. I produce. I don’t think much about it, I just act.
Thinking takes up time.
And I don’t have time. Daily life keeps me busy.
When does one really have time, these days?
At the end of the day I fall into bed as if dead – I got so much done again, and still it’s not enough.
If only I had more time…
There just isn’t enough of it. Time gets ever scarcer, because we keep accelerating our lives so much.

There is less and less of time available.
So we move faster. And faster still.
A rush. Pressing appointments. Stress.
I have to.
I have to.
I have to keep moving.
 
We flagellate ourselves with more and more rules, draw our limitations ever more closely around us.
Then we say we live on the edge.
But how defined that edge, that limit?
And why is our space so tiny?

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

photos: Theresa Kaindl
location: Königsberger See

I need to get off this hamster wheel.
So I made the decision to take on a new project this year. I want to have more time.
And less stress. And transcend my limitations.
I know, it’s a skipping record.
Every year the same story: I want to take more time blablabla.
But I really mean it this time.
I want to change my life.
This time for real.
It may just be my last chance.

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column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

Chapter 2

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

I sit here, trying to put my thoughts in order.
I wish it was easier, but my thoughts flare up like short flashes.
Brief, intense emotions – bright and fleeting, blinding me for a split second, and then they are gone.
Little needles pricking may brain.
A mixture of fear and hope.

Tick. Tack.

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

Recently I started to ask myself more and more questions.
Deep, profoung questions that cannot be answered. Only time will tell. These questions have no answers – yet.
 
I am sometimes afraid of the world, afraid of the future. I think that’s an accurate way to describe it. I wonder whether my parents felt the same. Or my grandparents, even.
 
Sure, every generation asks questions like ‘will I still be around in 50 years?’, ‘will I be able to keep up with the mortgage payments for my house, will I have financial stability?’, ‘what does the future hold for me?’, ‘will my children be safe and secure?’.
 
I’m not even asking those questions anymore. In fact, they seem small and insignificant compared to the ones that occupy my mind: ‘will humanity even continue to exist in a form that resembles what we know today?’, ‘what shape will future societies take?’. ‘what is going to happen with our planet?’.
 
Everything is moving, accelerating. Every day marks a quantum leap. But where to?
No one seems to be able to tell me.
 
There is only only logical consequence to this: we have to live more in the NOW. Who knows what the future brings. NOW – that is the time I actually have. I can use it freely. I cannot go back to yesterday, and I can’t borrow a chunk of tomorrow. I can decide to go to bed now, because it would be sensible, or I can choose to continue writing this text, that already seems so confused at this point that I’m seriously wondering whether I’ll even post it. Will I be ridiculed for it? ‘Has Masha finally lost it?’
 
But all I do is ask myself some questions, and by sharing them I pose them to you as well. That’s all.

What are you living for?
Do you really believe in a secure pension?
What makes you happy?
What would you like to have more time for?

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

Which is the right moment to do things that make us happy?
Is it really now? Or later? And at which point does ‘later’ turn into ‘too late’?
 
There is no answer to these questions, but there is a solution to the problem: I want to lead a more conscious life.
I want to really feel my feelings, and really live my life.
I am in love, and I want to experience this emotion with every fibre of my body, preserve it in every cell.
I am happy, because I am healthy, and my loved ones are too.
I am scared, because I have people and things in my life that are important to me.
I am alive. And I want to feel more alive.
So I do the things I am doing, and I enjoy being in love, vulnerable and alive.
Consciously.

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

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Chapter 3

Time.

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

It runs through my fingers, and leaves me with the question: how much of it do I have left? What am I going to do with it? Do I actually ‘have’ time, or is it rather something I need to take?

Maybe I will look for answers to my questions forever. Maybe I will never get any. Maybe this uncertainty is what eternity feels like. Who knows. Everything seems possible, somehow.
All I can hope for, is that the time I put into this article was worth it, and that it made you smile. Every moment is so precious, and I hope you are taking something with you for the time you gifted me by reading these lines.

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

column about time | location: Königsberger See, Bavaria, Germany, Austria, mountains, nature, winter | fashion editorial shooting | generation Y

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16 Comments


  1. Dear Masha,
    I just landed on your blog because Tina from Style Appetite recommended it and I am so glad I came. This post is not only beautifully written and accompanied by astonishing pictures, but it really resonates to what I (and most likely so many other people out there) am feeling right now in my life. There is never enough time and although I do desire to live in the NOW the constant need to do things, to feel productive, to reach your goals keeps you always on the move… Thank you for taking the time to write such a beautiful piece. You really made my day.

    Saida

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  2. Ach du meine Güte! Was ein Post, ein richtiges Kunstwerk. Bin echt geflashed von dem Layout^^ Hast du richtig toll gemacht! Und schöne Worte… Mein Vorsatz war jedes Jahr “ankommen”, “im Jetzt leben”. Und ich muss sagen, dass habe ich im letzten Jahr geschafft. Was bestimmt auch mit meiner neuen Beziehung zusammenhängt. Ich will die Verantwortung dafür nicht an jemand anderen abgeben, aber ich glaube schon, dass wenn man sich gegenseitig so gut tut (so wie auch du und dein Freund! was ich natürlich eigentlich gar nicht beurteilen kann, aber es kommt mir so vor.), das Ankommen viel leichter fällt. Mein Leben hat sich total entschleunigt, ich will nicht immer nur noch auf etwas hinarbeiten, auf einen Zeitpunkt, auf ein Ereignis… Sondern bewusster im Jetzt leben. Und ich schreibe gerade meine Masterarbeit (Architektur)^^. Und trotz dem Stress kommt mir alles viel langsamer vor…
    Eine Sache muss ich noch loswerden: Den Podcast, den du mit Lisa zusammen machst, finde ich so toll! Ihr sprecht genau die Themen an, die ich interessant finde; Gefühle, zwischenmenschliche Beziehungen (nicht nur Liebesbeziehungen), Selbstreflektion. Ich höre mir die einzelnen Folgen echt öfter an^^
    Ich lasse dir ganz liebe Grüße da!
    Laura aus Frankfurt

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  3. Can’t get enough of your pictures. Especially recently you’ve posted some that were amongst the best of anyone I’ve seen, ever.

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  4. Hey Masha!
    Wow! Das Thema (Lebens-)Zeit betrifft uns ja wirklich alle. Dein Blog-Post regt zum nachdenken an und die Bilder entführen für einen kurzen Augenblick aus der Realität. Das gefällt mir sehr gut.Vielen dank für diesen wunderschönen Blog-Post von dir.

    Dark Regards
    Ace

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  5. Toller Post Masha,
    ja Zeit ist so kostbar und auch bei mir (leider) rare gesäht.
    Es ist so wichtig sich mehr Zeit zu nehmen, denn ich glaube, es macht nicht glücklicher “alles” ZU MACHEN; SONDERN SICH LIEBER ZU FOKUSSIEREN::
    Alles Liebe,
    xxMaj-Britt

    https://majstatement.com/

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  6. I have unfortunately heard that with age the time passes even quicker and quicker. There is no hope for us.

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  7. Liebe Masha, du sprichst mir wieder Mal aus der Seele. Wahnsinn, dein Text, mir geht es einfach 1 zu 1 genauso, aber ich könnte es nicht so ausdrücken wie du es gerade getan hast! Hut ab. Und die Bilder sind wieder der absolute Hammer, tolle Arbeit!!!
    Liebe Grüße, Sandra

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