– In collaboration with Calida –
DDisclaimer: I must admit, I was not sure until the very last minute how many of the pics I shot for Calida I would actually be up for sharing online. You have seen the odd picture of me in a bra before, and at times I have shown quite a bit of skin, but this much? Is it really appropriate to show my whole body, dressed only in panties and a bra? The thought never crossed my mind during the shoot, but it gradually surfaced afterwards.
It’s strange, in a way. If it was a bikini, I’d never second guess it. I mean, I post pictures of myself in a bikini when I’m on holiday. But underwear?
While the amount of skin shown (and concealed) is exactly the same, this somehow feels like a different level, and I feel a different kind of inhibition.
In the back of my head I hear my mother, sighing:
‘Was that really necessary?’
To which my consciousness replies: ‘Well, she’s used to crazier stuff on my part’.
But honestly, is this a big thing because I blow it up, or does this go deeper?
Where does this inhibition come from?
I do show my sexy side from time to time, but I wouldn’t consider my style primarily ‘sexy’ or ‘feminine’, at least those would not be the first attributes I would use. Sure, I enjoy the attention of men. But back in the day, in school, I was teased whenever I wore skirts and dresses (I was the ‘skirt girl’ then), which still makes me a bit insecure to the day.
Oh yeah, because all women who wear skirts or dresses that may not even cover the knee (good lord!) are of course whores, right? I was not even 14 years old and I was already up against these clichés. And I hadn’t even kissed a boy on the mouth yet. But only wearing trousers was no solution for me, either :)
So I stuck to my style, and my reputation stuck to me.
And that lead to the following reaction in me: I decided I was not ready to submit to convention if that meant I would have to betray my personal style. Yes, I was pretty stubborn, even back then.
I did indeed pursue my own ideas in style, and followed my own convictions, but I also became self-conscious in the process. Never again did I want to hear someone talk bad about me behind my back.
And what can I say? That didn’t work out, of course.
Location: Hotel Zoo Berlin
Photos: Theresa Kaindl
Today, more than 10 years later, it’s easy to laugh about these old stories, but at the same time I am conscious how influential those experiences were for the path I was about to take in life, for better or worse.
On the one hand, being singled out strengthened me, and I learned to stand up for myself and my own style, even if it goes against the grain. At the same time, I came out of it all with a certain inhibition to show too much skin, and I have to jump over my own shadow every time, as we say in German. It’s a genuine effort.
I do believe that it is up to every woman how much she wants to show of her body. And why not show a bit more from time to time? I have not felt so good in my skin for ages, and I would like to show that.
Why should underwear only be presented by models, after all?
Calida Shirt & Pants Set aus weichem Frottee
Calida was founded in Switzerland in 1941, and has focused on the production of undergarments and nightwear. The company’s range also includes loungewear, shirts, knit-wear accessories as well as swim and beach wear. The products are of high quality and sustainably sourced, with uncluttered and timeless designs that are readily combinable. That’s what I appreciate so much about Calida: the pieces are soft, comfortable companions in every day life, and as flexible as I am.
Calida Soft Bra & Panties
My body is nowhere nearly as flawless as that of a model, but I am healthy, and for the first time ever I am genuinely proud of myself. And I wanted to show that in this cooperation with Calida, a brand that stands for exactly that for me: feeling 100% well and at home in my skin.
That does not mean I have to be super skinny, I am not. Still, I enjoy seeing the muscles defining my body, a welcome confirmation that the hours I spent exercising over the past year were completely worth it. This is a personal success for me, and I want to share it with you.
And isn’t it nice to see a ‘real’ body from time to time, one without perfect curves, or, as in my case, one without many curves at all?
Plus, there’s nothing indecent about underwear per se. We all wear it. Every single day I’m wondering which outfit to wear, and naturally I’m also thinking about which underwear to pick. The material needs to feel soft and comfortable on the skin, without being too noticeable. And that’s exactly why Calida products are perfect for me.
How do you feel about it?
Blogger in underwear – yay or nay?
Who am I hurting?
Who could possibly be offended?
Calida Kimono aus sanftem MicroModal®