RIP Partymasha†

.Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

The caption under the party pic of my friends reads: ‘A perfect evening with the perfect crew!’ Reading this, my face turns into an emoji comprised of hyphen, underscore, hyphen. Like this: -_-
 
My lips curl up slightly, my eyes narrow.
My tomcat has that expression on his face sometimes, when he sees me binging on a tasty kebap. What it communicates is this: ‘I can bear it… but it’s not great.’

Location: Swarovski Crystal World
Photos: Theresa Kaindl
Outfit: Gucci pants & Gucci blazer

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

The reason why I’m annoyed? I’m not on that picture.
Looks like I don’t belong to this perfect crew. Pfff. ‘So be it’, I think to myself, defiantly, only to get even more annoyed with my own reaction. The thing is, there is a nagging little voice in my head, and it speaks the truth: ‘Masha, no offense, but you’re really no longer a party girl.’
 
The truth is, I probably would not have added much to that evening. I also wouldn’t have made it worse though, to be fair. I probably would have left just when the party was getting into full swing. I’d probably have gotten tired by then, or maybe I just wouldn’t have been wasted enough. Or too wasted, that’s also a possibility. Maybe I just wouldn’t have seen a point in staying in a place that just didn’t make me happy there and then. Or maybe I’m just a bit of a bore, given that I’d usually opt for an evening of series or games, even a dinner, over a party. Usually even bed seems more attractive than going out these days.
 
So, this is what it’s come to, then.

When did I become the kind of boring person who’d crash into bed rather than crashing a party?
No, seriously, I need to know: When?
 
When I got into a stable relationship? When I got my Netflix subscription? When I reached a certain age, as betrayed by my passport? Or was it that day when I had to admit to myself that I just can’t handle the mornings-after as well as I used to, and that partying is becoming less and less compatible with work? Like, not compatible at all? And on the other hand, boyfriend, couch and Netflix are a match made in heaven, who could argue with that? It’s like three perfect circles, overlapping perfectly. Congruency: 150%.
 
The truth is, I don’t want to be boring in my late 20s. It’s too early to be the person that talks about clubbing as a thing of the past, the girl who’s never even heard of the newest, hippest bars.
But problem is that I don’t feel like going out, either.
In other words, I’m torn between who I’d like to be and who I am.
 
I just prefer sitting at home to going out. Given the option, I choose wine over vodka, and I’d rather go to an art opening than to a party warm up. I’m not even that much older than I used to be, but my preference for Netflix & Chill has grown disproportionately to my age in the last couple of years.

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

Am I responsible for so many clubs facing dire straits these days?

Feels like it, sometimes. Well, I’m not the only one who’s responsible, of course. A study by ONS concluded that entrance fees at clubs rank high on a list of things we spend less and less money on. Other items include CDs (no surprises there) and DVDs. The study also claims that we lash out lavishly on coffee pads instead. How sad is that?
 
Maybe I should try to swim against the current again. Even if my main adversary is my own inner couch potato. Partying, getting wasted, going through the photographic evidence of the night the following day and enjoying my friends comments on my feed, revisiting the fresh memory of the recent debauchery.. maybe that’s just what I need. And maybe I should pay the entrance fee at the door, too. Guest list doesn’t count.

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Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

Swarovski Kristallwelten | Two piece from Gucci | Editorial Fashion Shooting | colorful, neon, sign, light, party, blacklight, drugs, clubs, generation Y & Z

This post is also available in German Russian



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  1. Mix a little bit of both maybe…If that’s what you want..but in the end, just follow your heart as it knows what makes you happy :)

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  2. Du sprichst mir förmlich aus dem Munde, Masha :) liebe Grüße

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  3. Wow, these pictures! So artistically, like that. For me, a party needs to be something special and I have to be in the mood.. days before! That feels so good, when the day comes and you just enjoy your perfect party-plan with your lovely person.

    Greetings, mealove.blog

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  4. Wow, die Fotos sind echt mega cool !
    Und ein toller Post :) Ich gehe momentan gewungener maßen nicht mehr feiern, ich lebe für ein paar Monate in Norwegen und hier ist einfach nichts :D man gewöhnt sich das “Verlangen” auch irgendie ab ..
    Wie auch immer, ich wünsche dir einen tollen Tag :)

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    1. oh das ist natürlich blöd! Krass, dass in Norwegen so tote Hose ist :(((

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  5. Abgesehen von dem wahren Inhalt des Textes: WAHNSINNS FOTOS!! Ich bin (wie so oft bei Deinen Bildern) total geflashed!
    Just say´in… :-)

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  6. Masha,

    These photos are beautiful! I especially love the one where you are sitting on the stair, your beauty styling is just gorgeous.

    Onto the subject matter, maybe it is just January. Maybe we try not so hard when we have a cosy place, boyfriend and bed to be thinking about. A rest can be great and much needed sometimes. I see too much of myself in this article! Torn between how I feel currently and how I want to be/feel.

    Lets just call is January.

    <3

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    1. awww thank you dear!

      yeah january and february are just shitty months :D

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  7. Why are you so bent out of shape about not wanting to party? What exactly does it bring into your life? Fun?Doesn’t sound that way. Meaningful relationships? Nope, not at a party. A certain reputation? Well, party people don’t care because it’s their Mondays. And non-party people don’t care because they don’t see partying as an achievement. So what makes you so frustrated about it, my dear Masha? Being a bore means having no intelligence. Sounds like you have no problems with that. So relax. Watch some Netflix. Cuddle with your boyfriend and stop wasting your IQ on trying to figure out why you don’t want to party. You probably just grew up. It happens. :)
    By the way, you look gorgeous in these photos, in that suit, in that kind of lighting!

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    1. “You probably gre uop It happens” love that one.
      Guess you’re right.

      But still I waste my thoughts on it, asking myself how that could happen so fast :D

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  8. Last Friday we went out to a very polite dinner with very not polite amount of cavas. I am still not sure how I made it through Saturday. Too young or not, my body says it is just not worth it.

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  9. Mir geht es ganz genau so. Und ich bin anfang/mitte 20. aber ich find‘s ok. Ich hab so viel gefeiert, das reicht für 2 leben, haha. Wenn es sich nicht mehr richtig anfühlt, warum sollte man sich zwingen?

    Liebe Grüße,

    Arunika von quarterlife.blog

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    1. ja das denke ich mir dann wiederum auch.. andererseits ist es gar nicht so einfach zahm zu werden, wenn man dann mal so wild war :D

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